Hello, dear readers.
Sometimes you need to walk away to remember that you were already at the place you loved the most.
Around the time I wrote my hiatus post, I was in a pretty rough place emotionally. I’d taken a writing job within the company I work for at the behest of my boss, who really needed help with a project. My performance was fine, but it sapped my soul out from between my ears like nothing else. After 10 hours a day writing mundane instructions and editing some of the most awful English I’ve ever laid my eyes on, the last thing I wanted to do when I came home each night was sit at the computer and write fiction.
The problem being, when I don’t write fiction, my brain starts to get really messy. In the same way that sleep cleans out neurotoxins from our brains, for me, writing neatly tidies away my emotional baggage and keeps my depression in check. Without it, things begin to go awry. I found myself in a downward spiral that culminated in me having a meltdown at a meeting. Thankfully, the project was complete by that point and I returned to the work I was doing before. I’ve managed to stabilize my depression and get back on track.
It’s strange – everybody (including myself) thought that the job was a perfect fit for me, but the truth was, it was only sapping the mental energy that I needed to take care of myself. Sometimes things don’t always work out the way that you envision them, but I think I learned some valuable lessons – one of which is that writing fiction isn’t just a hobby for me, but an important part of my life.
That being said, what I wrote in my hiatus post was true. I’ve become extremely frustrated and exhausted by social media firebrands and fake news from all sides of the political spectrum. Don’t get me wrong – there are issues and things I care about, same as anybody else, but I needed a rest from the mass hysteria that seems to dominate today’s political discussion. I took a Twitter break, and I’m starting to interact a little bit more, but I’m unfollowing a few people. I’m very sensitive when it comes to people’s moods and my gentle way of peace and love doesn’t seem to gel with a lot of the anger and outrage that’s in fashion today. I want rights for all but that’s not something we can achieve by treading on others. That’s always been the message of my books and I’ll never stop believing in equality for all people.
The Nero Protocol finally has a release date – June 7th – and I’m really excited about it. This novel is incredibly close to my heart and I’m really proud of it. The blurb and gorgeous cover are up on Goodreads, where you can add it to your shelves. I’ll let you know when it goes live for preorder.